Anonymous: So I have always wanted to get fatter but also the thought of gaining muscle has always been an interest to me. But to be personal pictures of fat men and me fattening up is what I fantasize about. Is this common?
My Response: Yes, not only is it common, I believe the conflicting desires are natural in a way, given the architecture of the kink. The best (and shortest) answer I can give to your question is simply to look at the question as you have written it. You already know the shape of your body that will give you the most pleasure and satisfaction. You already know that becoming immensely fat is something you have dreamed of since before memory.
I think your real question is why you also have competing desires to become muscular, perhaps even fit and lean. Gainers are distinct from encouragers. Nevertheless we both share the same erotic engine. All gainers at some point wonder what it would be like to fatten someone and to be traditionally desired (muscular or ripped or whatever shape you might find in a magazine). This desire may be fleeting or it may haunt a gainer all his life. Similarly, all encouragers have contemplated becoming obese–to become the object of ridicule and ignominy. Again, the desire may last seconds or decades.
So the conflict is natural because gainer and encourager are the binary manifestations of the kink. The yin and the yang–two parts, one whole. You know what you are. You have said it already. But the nature of the kink is to seek its other half. Find your muscled encourager. Gaining is sexual, sex requires partnership, and this is ours. You know what you are. Now find your yang.
August 22nd, 2015 1:49am